apology

kashfi im sry  for evrythng i did to u.....i kno i wasnt bside u whn u needed me...m so sry grl...i apologize to u.....i like u evryday evry moment every minute...u nevr kno how much i care abt u...i feel abt u..jst dnt 4get me.

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Kashfi: ja bolte chai, ta a bujhe shob shomoy kano ulta bujhish ami jani na..... ami bolsi oder kotha as a fact, tui boltesish tui naki kichu korish nai amar jonno.... ami ki bolsi j khali orai korse amar jonno, duniyar keu kichu kore nai? ifti tui always bhul bujhish kano amake... ami pura kotha ta bolsi jate tui ektu bujhish j tor jonno koto manush ache, koto amsnuh tor pashe ache, sheta a bujhe tui bujhli j amar pashe tui thakish na.... ajob ifti... tui nijer bepare eta dharona korle amar kiccchu kroar nai... tui r sadia amar jonno ki, eta ami jani... kauke bolar dorkar nai, even todero na!!! baad de, amar kichui bolar nai... aami kichui bolbo na r !

uffffffffffffffffffffff kshfi thnkzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz lot lot lot...tui nije-o jante parli na..amk j koto boro releif disis tui........amr mon ta ettttto karap hoisilo j ki bolbo...thnkuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu.......jah ekta chumma diye dilam tore....hahahahah...sry re rag korish na.....ajaira ktha bollam r ki......hahahahaha....babyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy ami toke vhishon posondo kori...sara jeebon korbo...tor j kono bipod hobe ami pashe thakbo...tor bola-o lagbe na eta.......thnkkkkkkkkkkk u

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Kashfi: thik korte hobe na kichui. ami shob bhule gesi... i just dont want that u repeat it.... ifti shun... manlam we r better friends, ok.... but ora j mood dekhse, ami eta mante martesi na... amar mone hocche akhono dekhtesde mood.... uthe chole asha mane obohoi mood!! tui normal hote aprtesish na.... so, amar ultimtly oder jonno kahrap lagtese..... ami tokey bolsi na j ragib r riasat er jonno ami always thakbo, atleast thakte chabo?? ei akrone na kintu j amar khub bhalo friend..... karon versity friend, ajke thakbe, kalke na,, kono ebpar na... kintu ami kokhno bhulbo na... j amar kahrap shomoy orai amar pashe chilo.... so,,, etai bolte chacchi, khamakha onno der suffer kroaish na.... r amake sorry boalr kichu nai, amar rag nai tor upor,, and i understand you completly,...

ajk kashfi eta bollo amk....ha buzte parlam...o ashole kono din-o amk ragib or ria r moto apon keu vavbe na.....ta thik vavar kotha-o na.....ami to kokhono kisu kori nai or jonno...or kono karap somoye or pashe thaki nai...

amr mone hoi ami ekhn kisu ta buzte partesi na...kano amk tor ashle oto valo lage na....ami chesta kori tor jonno onk kisu korte....korle-o tui buzis na mone hoi...jaihok ekhn r complain korte pari na ami...coz u said it i really didnt do nethng 4 u...but onno ra shobai korse....

so ki r kora re...ami r temon ekta obak hobo na mon karap korbo na tui jodi amk kokhono notice na korish or amk ignore kore jete thakish.....

now i ll take evrythng easy....coz im feeling yah i thnk ur my bstes frnd evr...but no im not ur bst frnd..im jst a versity frnd....ha kokhono kokhono j chilo tor sathe...abr kokhono chole jeto...abr fire ashto....ha tai re...amk oto mone rakhar dorker nai tor......

kintu kshfi re.....tui amk mone hoii buzli na....tui j amr koto osomvov kaser ek jon seta tui janish na....amr she asha kora tao thik  hobe na.....ami shb kisui easily take korbo......

r kashfi ami amr life amr frnd er jonno joto kisu korsi amr nijer jonno-o ami toto ta kori nai....

ami tor sathe onk mood dekhai..onk insult kori...thik....tru....kinty mst funny part mone hobe tor shunle j kano kori eta....coz i truely think ur ma bst part of buet life...nd amr whole life er-o one of th bst part......ami amr joto mis-bhav or joto kisu onnai kaj karap kaj shb kisui kori amr khub kaser manush joner upor......onnoder sathe ami eto tuku karap kisu kori na....eta tui buzbi na re konodin........amk jemon karap mone hoi tor ami oto karap na re........

tobe ha ami mone hoi eto beshi kisu dserve kori na tor kas theke...truely i dnt dsrve wht i want frm u.......

jaihok baper na....amr haranor khatai arek ta oprapti add holo r ki....ei oprapti ta sara jeebon amk onk beshi koshto dibe r jontro na dibe....amk sara jeebon vavabe ei chnta j amr bst frnd er kase ami jst ekta versity frnd hote parsi r kisui na...........

kano emn holo????ami kan shb jaigai looser????ami ki life kokhono kisu pabo na????

 

bad feelings

valo lagtese na..........no body can understand me....wtevr i aint complain...i dnt xpect too much frm neone...nd specially kashfi...yah i dont evr ask u for anythng.......

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gotokal boshundhorai ghurte gelam...shbai ashche...tahnee ashe nai r sadia ashe nai...kashfi amr sathe onk ktha bolse...onk din pore bolse...o agree korbe na...o lst koekta occasione asholei amr sathe tmn ktha bole nai...ami kheyal korsi bole ami buzsi baper ta....or kase eta hoito kono baper-i na...kintu amr karap lage onk....

tao onk din por valo laglo j kshfi onk valo bhav korse amr sathe....

kintu ekta ktha hotat mone holo...or kas theke ei bhavior ta ki amii jor kore adai korsi???ami oke onkber bolsi bole...or ami mood dekhaisi bolei ki o kisu ta hole-o emn chnge hoise ekhn???jani na...jodi emn hoi tahole baper ta onk karap holo...jor kore karo kas theke ami jeebone kisu adai kori nai...othocho or attntion emn kore adai korlam...khub karap holo baper ta...

o vavse j nada chilo bole naki ami ajk rag kori nai...nah ktha ta thik na re kshfi...o shb somoi emn kano vave ami jani na....nada k ami onk like kori tru...kintu amr valo laga karap  laga bessi contrl hoi kshfi ekhn toke niye.....jaihok ...eta tui buzbi na.

ami manush ta krp hote pari...kintu tao toke j ki osomvov posondo kori seta konodin buzbi na....r shber theke..nadar theke,tahnee theke=o..koto j vhoyongkor posondo kori seta ami chara keu jane na...tui nije-o amk eto ta posondo korish na....tor jana lagbe-o na..kisu ktha na janle kisu jai ashe na.....prithibi tate palte jabe na....

amk khoma kore dish...onk somoi onk ulta palta kori...kintu shb kisui ei valo laga theke kori...baad de tor eshb jene ki hobe....tor eto valobashar asholei dorker nai...toke valobashar jonnnno onk manush ase...so okarone amr eshb chelemanushi niye ki korbi.

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jani na...kano jani ekhono kshfir theke onk bessi xpeci kori....o onk kore amr jonno...terpor-o aro beshi chai ami....k eto chai ami....ammi greedy hoye gesi....

nijek manush hishabe onk boro vavtem...mone hoto yah ami karo adorsho hote pari...ve tht quality...kintu na ekhn r tmn mne hoi na....

st mertin e onk baze bhav korsi kshfir sathe...o amk nishchoi erkm kore chai nai...o chaise ami oke onk time dibo kheyal rakhbo...

man i tried to do so...kintu jkhni dekhtem o onnoder sathei bok bok kore jacchi...r ami pichone eka eka ghurtesi or kheyal nai....or ktha-o boshe golpo kortesi..o shber sathe golpo kortese..amr ktha ek ber-o mone korlo na..ktha-o bollo vodrota kore ekta dui ta...amr nije k eto choto mone hoto r eto ignored feel kortem..ami nije k atkai rakhte partem na...amr onk koshto hoto...keu buzbe na eta ami jani...ami chara r keu buzbe na,,,,

kshfi kisu na.....ami kono din buzi nai tor kasakasi thakte chaoya ta j eto osojjho er baper hobe tor kase....ami ek domi buzi nai eta....tui j amk koto ta dukkho disi tui nije-o mone hoi janish na..

tui amk bolli toke r 10 ta frnd er moto vavte....baper ta j koto ta insulting r hurting seta tui jodi janti....sadia jodi aj toke bole kshfi amk r frnd na emni clsmate mone kor...kmn lagbe re tor???jani na amii hoito vhul boltesi......but kshfi ami koto ta j hurt hoisi toke buzate parbo na....

ami vavsilam ami deserve kori bessi tor kas theke...onno der cheyei bessi deserve kori...nd i bliv eta tru...ami buke hat rekhe bolte pari r keu tor jonno eto ta feel kore na joto ta ami kori....

toke shb kisu boler pore....kno amr eto rag hoi alwz boler pore ami vavsilam tui bolbi...sry re ifti,ami ashle emn kore kheyal kori nai,ami buzte pari nai...ami tor sathe-o onnoder motoi sweet thakbo...tui amr sathe joto ta valo thakis ami ter theke-o valo thakbo tor sathe...tui r vavis na..r kokhono emn hobe na....

kintu eshb kisui holo na..pura onno ktha shunlam ami...uff so disappointing all ths

othocho tor kase er kono valuiii nai....onk koshto peyesi re mone.....ami shb chapa diyei rakhbo....koshto amr jonno notun kisu na...so ami aste aste sojjho korte parbo..ekhn kisu ta karap lagbei but somoi nile thk hoye jabe.

kshfi ami sry ami toke amr bst frnd vavsilam...tor ashle amr bst frnd hoyer quality nai...tui sottikarer amk buzli na...tor tete kisu jai ashbe na....toke care korer moto loker ovav nai...so tor somossa hobe na.

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khub koshto hocche...kao k bolte partesi na...jake amr shb kisu boltem shb somoi eto din..she ekhn dure chole jete chai.....take kisu bola jabe na.....

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nada tui ki asis re????ami onk kshte asi re....ami ek dom oshohai hoye gesi...kshfi amk pura shes kore ditese....tui chle geli...ami kshfir upor dependent holam r o amk latthi mere ber kore dise re ekdom....................

ami kshfi k kono din khoma korbo na.....hote pare ja kisu vhul amii korsi...kintu kshfi amk j dukkho ta dilo..ami kono din vhulbo na.

thik ase

kashfi thik ase ami toke niye r eto vavbo na,ami buzi na kao k imp dile j ter eto karap lagbe....tui shb somoi thik kthai bolish ami jani...jani na amr koek ta ktha karap lagse re tor....ami jani ami prei somoi shb karap kthai boli tore...kintu eta tui-o janos ami-o jani eshb kthar meaning nai kono....kintu tui jeshb bolish ta to chnta korei bolish tai na???....jaihok ami vhule jabo eshb.....

ami real wrld e tor kas theke ektu attention chai..eta j tor eto oposdo hoilo eta buzi nai re.....thak r ki kora....ami ki r bolbo?jani na...

ajk to toke bolei dilam kano amr rag hoi?tui obosso temon ekta patta dili na....thik ase bad taile////yui hazar joner sathe heshe heshe ktha bolbi r ami wka boshe thakbo oi jaigai...adha ghonta pore tor mone hobe ha ifti re ekta dak dei...ei jodi tui ekhno korte chaas thik ase kor.....

tor kase tor ei feelings er gurotto ase j ami toder sathe j rokom thakbo onno r karo sathe sherokom kano hobo??ha ami-o tai bliv kori...onnoder ami kano toder moto kore treat korbo.

kintu kashfi ami-o j tai chai....amr-o ki mone hoi na emn j ami adnan fariz ba ragib er cheye bessi attention pabo tor kas theke....ami ki alwz thaki na tor sathe???ami ki alwz vavi  na tor bishoi niye????sry re amr chaoya ta j eto bessi hoye gese seta dhrte pari nai re eto din...ami protidin asha korsi aj na hok kal kal tui buzbi amr e chaoya ta....nah r buza holo na tor....

st mertin er shp e amr misbhav asholei onk bessi hoise....amr rag tao j prochondo chilo....tui ragib adnan re niye eker por ek dhng kore jacchis r ami ek konai pore asi ----amr onk koshto lagse eta...jaihok keu buzlo na eta...tui-o buzli na....shbai onk onk valo tor kase...thak re vhi...ami olpo olpo kore dure shore jabo ne..

ek bare gele to chokhe pore..olpo olpo kore sore jabo ami...tor kas theke chaoya gula shorai nibo...nd chesta korbo tor dukkho koshto anondo bedona jeno amk ekhnker moto eto ta touch na kore...tor shb kisu shoner moto buzar moto loker to kono ovav nai....so amk khub 1 ta lagbe na tor...amr ovav tao feel korbi na tui,valo thakish.....amr elemelo jeebon ta emni thakbe chirokal...chirokal amk kisu na kisu haratei hobe...ei amr vaggo re vhi...kicchu korer nai....aj ekta eid er din...koi temon ekta anondo pelam nma....ki r korbo.

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kashfi valo asis re????tor ktha kotto j mone portese.....tui valo thakish..ami onk koshto dei tore,tor mon karap kore dei...ashle ami buzi kom to tai eshb kori...tui amr life dekha bst person...amr bstet bst frnd.....tui ja khushi kor tao ami toke mathai tule rakhno...tui 1 ta ktha bolle 1 ta hashi dile ami shb kisu vhule jai...shb kisu...shb oviman shb koshto..evrythng.i luv u baby....amr lck ta kotto valo j tor moto karo sathe amr porichoi ase......

kicchu na baal

haire kashfi...ki j bolbo toke tai buztesi na.....aj ei adnan ei ragib tmr khub fav hoye gese...coz tara gossip tackle dicche r ami gossip banai beracchi ...tai na????
ami jodi boli orai prothm theke ei gossip partyr sathe jorito...orai prothm theke nana rokom gossip banaito...biswwas hobe tor????kisui hobe na re kisui hobe na.....
ekhn shbai valo tor kase....
j ami prothm theke eshb theke durte thaki aj shei amiii culprit...haire duniya re....ami na pailam shanti gossip partyr sathe mishe..na pailam shanti tor kase eshe....
tui ki kono din-o buzar chesta korsis..ekta manush kano eto mezaz karap kore kano eto mood dekhai???tor chokhe to porbe na kisu,,,tui ki kheyal korbi eshb.....ami sarata somoi thaki tor sathe sathe...ami ki chaite pari na tui amk onno der theke ektu bessi attention dibi???othocho tui thakish-i sarakkhn onnoder sathe...net ei kabol tuk tak ja time dish amre ektu....amr khub koshto hoi..ami bolte pari na kao k...tui ki vavsis ami toke bole jor kore tor kas theke attention adai korbo????
tui kono din sadiar sathe emn kore dekhis..or kmn lage tkhn buzbi...koto ta oshohai feel kori ami seta tui ki buzbi?
tor bozar kotha-o na...toke khushi rakhar moto hazar ta frnd ase tor..ek jon na thakle arek jon ashbe...amr keu nai..tai toke eto ta kase kase chaisilam...
r kokkhono kisu bolbo na..ei tour er somoi amr onk onk bessi xpectation chlo tor sathe bcoz of ter ager koto gula diner jonno..amr mone hoisilo at lst i got u....terpor-o jkhn holo na.. r kono din hobe bole amr mone-o hocche na...ja hok na hole nai...amr dukkher buzar sathe na hoi arektu add holo...shudu ektu veve dekhish..sadiar pore r k ase j toke niye eto kisu vave...j tor jonno sara ta somoi net e boshe thake...k tor ktha sarata khon chnta kore...ami jani tor kase eshber mullo nai...thak ..ami r kisu chaibo na...er theke valo kore toke buzanor khomota amr nai....tui valo thak...shei valo...ami normally cholbo tor sathe...khamokhai onk onk bessi chaite gesi ami...birat vhul hoise eta...im sry to none...im sry to myslff.

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kashfi amk eto dukkho dish kano tui????ami ki khub beshi kisu chai tor kas theke???tui onno der sathe ki shundor kore ktha bolish...amr sathe-o ki omon kore ktha bolaa jai na???ami ki tor kase key na???amr kano value nai tor kase????amr oporadh ta ki bolte parbi?????

st martin tui shp e jkhn bolli ami kano toke ashte bollam...amr eto karap lagse oi din....nijeke koto j oporadhi mone hoisilo....ami toke aste bolsi tui anondo pabi bole...tor j surutei karap lagbe ami kolpona-o kori nai...amr onk karap lagse eta shune.....ami bishonno hoye gesilam tkhn theke...tui mone hoi eta buzte parsili...tai she din beach e berber ktha bolsili amr sathe....ami oidin vavsilam tui mone chnge hoisis...amk patta dicchis...amr valo lagsilo onk..kintu pore buzte parsi oi ta chilo ship e oi ktha bolsili ter compansasion.amr mon ta abr karap hoye gelo....shondhai tui jkhn bolli oi pic ta tulsilam toke niye..tor onk valo lagse...tui amk thnx bolli...amr abr shb valo lagte strt korlo.......

kintu lst 2 ta din amr osojjho rokomer karap katse.....ami obak hoye cheye dekhsi....tui ragib ria adnan der sathe ki shundor heshe heshe ktha boltesis...sarakkhn oder sathe thaktesis...r ami ekaki pore asi...ora shbai onk dure thakle-o tui oder dak diye diye ki shundor ktha boltesis...hastesis.....omg ami boshe asi samne othocho tor chokh pore na amr dike....1 ta ktha-o bolte iccha kore na tor...she din ami boshe asi dolnai...tora shbai adda ditesili....tahni amk call-o korsilo...tor mone-o pore nai amr ktha....ekta call-o dili na amk.....tui ki kore emn korte parish..amk ektu bolbi????

kshfi ...st martin ashar age tor sathe koto ktha hoilo amr..ami vavsilam..at lst tui amk apon keu vavsis...ekhn theke amr sathe onk time thakbi...onk shundor kore ktha bolbi....kintu na re holo na....ami abr dekhlam shb kisu shei ager moto...kono chnge ashlo na.....

kshfi ami ki toke kom time dei???amr to mone hoi sadiar pore j tor sathe shb theke bessi somoi dei..shb ktha bole she to ami....tao emn holo kano shb....ami fokirer moto cheye thaktem tui kokhn dak dibi amk...2 ta ktha bolbi....kintu holo na re.....toke dekhlam nij intrst niye shber sathe pic tultesis....tui ki mone korte tor ei jeebone kobe amk dak diye bolsis...ifti ai..amr sathe ekta pic tol....

kshfi eshb kisui onk gula choto choto dukkho theke creat hoise...jkhni eshb hoise ami vavar chesta korsi eshb ashole kisui na....kintu protita din ami jkhn eshb dekhi ami koshte more jai......

aro onk ager ek diner ktha-o amr onk besshi kore mone porse re....zohurul hoq sir er rfregeration er multymediar din...tor pashe fariz boshlo,farizer pashe ami ....tui sarata somoi fariz er sathe ki chomotker kore ktha bole geli...amr sathe ekta ktha-o ki tor bolte iccha holo na re?????amk kano eto obohela korish tui shb somoi????

tor sathe jkhni 4-5 jon thake...tor kono vavei mone pore na amr ktha...kono ktha bolte tor iccha kore na amr sathe....tui amr sathe ja kisu ta valo thakish..seta ei net er moddhe...real lfe e tui boro ochena.....amr chinte pari na tkhn toke....

amr onk onk koshto hoi...ami mood dekhai...tui shetai dekhis.....ei mood kano hoise kokhono vavish na seta......ki r bolbo bol toke...ami onk vave onk ber bolsi toke.....konoi chnge ashe nai tor maze.............

kshfi maf kore dish amk....ami manush ta karap....tai valo lage na eshb...

ajk bus e tui pichne eshe jlhn boshli pashe...amr kadhe matha rekhe shuye thakli eto valo lagse amr ki bolbo toke...pore obosso tui bolli j alo chkhe porse bolei tui pichone ashchili...ami vavsilam tui iccha kore aschis amr pashe boshbi bole....im wrng agn....bus tahni r tor pashe ragib k boshte dili...golpo korli....ragib er jaigai ami thakle ki boshte diti amk?????ami jani re diti na tui...................

ami shb mene nicchi....ami kicchu chaibo na re tor kas theke......lfe e ektu hashi anondo fire ashchilo....shb abr chole jacche din din.